That my worth is only determined by my usefulness.
If I can be myself.
If I know who I am anymore.
That someone else will find me.
That I didn't get them all.
I'm only playing back up.
That I cannot be anything more than a wild drifter.
That I cannot protect anyone or anything.
That I'm too much.
That I'm not enough.
That my anger will get the best of me, like it did my brother.
That home is nowhere.
That everything is superficial.
I'm a psycho.
i'm angry...
When I feel unappreciated.
When I see an injustice.
When I feel betrayed.
When coerced.
When I can do nothing but fail in things that matter most.
When I don't feel heard, or as though no one cares to hear me.
When people hurt children or animals.
When the family unit is disrespected or damaged.
When I'm only seen as an animal.
When my thoughts or feelings are dismissed.
When I'm only used as a convenience.
When someone moves into my territory.
Over needless explanations.
When I'm told how I should act, say, or be. Includes how I should have been.
i want...
To feel like myself, and to feel safe to do so.
To know what it means to not be alone.
To understand my worth.
To not run.
To be useful.
To accept others and be accepted.
Time to figure out what I want.
To not feel like I have to look over my shoulder.
To not have to sacrifice anymore.
Friends, a family, a meaning.
Answers. Thoughts outside of my own.
To understand why people settle, to remember a home.
To know peace.
To belong. To have a home.
